So yesterday I was raving about how great it is to have four kids. And I even made a video about it. It is crazy that my baby will be two in a couple of weeks. I have been a mom of four for almost two years!
I just reread the post and watched the video and I felt like I was reading about and watching someone's else's sweet family. Because I am definitely not feeling it tonight. I was simply going to put the video up here, but felt like too much of a hypocrite. Aren't I all about keeping it real? I mean didn't I put up that hideous sick picture of me in the name of realness?
Yes, my children are adorable. Yes, I love my life. But it is hard sometimes.
Tonight at bedtime, I found myself begging for my family to be nice to me. It went something like this:
"I take care of you, I make sure you have clean clothes, healthy food, that you are safe and all I ask is that you are nice to me." Ugh. It was pathetic. The kids knew it. They sensed my need for acceptance, my need to be loved and they were a little disgusted.
I followed up my statement with the very mature "I quit. I am going to go get a job and you guys can take care of yourselves."
JT did a fist pump and mouthed "yes!" and I stormed out of the room.
Mature? No. Real? Um, yeah.
I will be better tomorrow. I love my kids. I just get tired. And sensitive sometimes.
But we will make it work.
Please watch the video, where hopefully I redeem myself.
And check out my new Gluten Can Suck It info page! Click here!
I just reread the post and watched the video and I felt like I was reading about and watching someone's else's sweet family. Because I am definitely not feeling it tonight. I was simply going to put the video up here, but felt like too much of a hypocrite. Aren't I all about keeping it real? I mean didn't I put up that hideous sick picture of me in the name of realness?
Yes, my children are adorable. Yes, I love my life. But it is hard sometimes.
Tonight at bedtime, I found myself begging for my family to be nice to me. It went something like this:
"I take care of you, I make sure you have clean clothes, healthy food, that you are safe and all I ask is that you are nice to me." Ugh. It was pathetic. The kids knew it. They sensed my need for acceptance, my need to be loved and they were a little disgusted.
I followed up my statement with the very mature "I quit. I am going to go get a job and you guys can take care of yourselves."
JT did a fist pump and mouthed "yes!" and I stormed out of the room.
Mature? No. Real? Um, yeah.
I will be better tomorrow. I love my kids. I just get tired. And sensitive sometimes.
But we will make it work.
Please watch the video, where hopefully I redeem myself.
And check out my new Gluten Can Suck It info page! Click here!
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